TOTAL EMPTINESS

Total Emptiness happens when you have nothing to hold on to. When you become  a sort of puppet controlled by somebody else you will have a sort of  internal vacuum which will affect your total personality. It is all a matter of choice which is under your control

It is this moment that counts and that is the only reality. As one saying goes “yesterday is a cancelled cheque ,tomorrow us a promissory note , today is CASH “ Hence extracting maximum of today’s possibilities is the only way to be happy. My friend ,who fell from the pedestal he created for himself, was really living in the past and thinking about the unknown future. What will happen to him ? But the truth is that what will happen to him tomorrow could be the result of what he does today .. may or may not be.. it is uncertain but everything is uncertain in life. 

You have to live your life and you have to make your choices at every step and you are responsible for your actions. I f you live and act according to the plans made for you by others you lose out on everything and you will feel that you have accomplished anything lie And at last you will think about the uselessness of the life that you had been living .This exactly was the case of our friend who went on living looking outside without looked within himself as to what he really wants .Tolstoy makes this point clear through one of his characters, IVAN ILYCH as he awaits his moment of truth .Ivan contemplates on his past thoroughly dominated by others opinions which he thought his own and gave up control of himself and thus living a “false life “.Our friend was also making an attempt to fit into a system which was not his but which others made for him and hence falling down into a chaotic situation. Freedom to choose has been a tragedy for him because he did not exercise his choice well, and hence ends up in regret . Now read what TOLSTOY says :

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What if my whole life has been wrong ?”It occurred to him that what had appeared perfectly impossible before ,namely that he had not spent his life as he should have done ,might after all be true. It occurred to him that his scarcely noticeable impulses ,which he had immediately suppressed ,might have been the real thing the rest false .And his professional duties and the whole arrangement of his life and of his family, and all his social and official interest, might all have been false . He tried to defend all those things to himself and suddenly felt the weakness of what he was defending. There was nothing to defend...

Happiness is our right and you alone can deny it to yourself. Hence you cannot blame anybody else for your unhappiness. I told our friend to write down on a sheet of paper whatever comes to his mind about what he really wants after careful thought .This is to effect a sort of catharsis ( Because he will definitely think about some significant things in his past before he thinks about the future)..

Then what happened ?.... continues